What *Are* You Expecting?

I read something today that hit me right. in. the. feels.
The kind of feels that make you wanna stick a middle finger at the screen and say "well, ya, go *&%$^^%&*" (the best part of leaving that up to interpretation is that, well, you get to use whatever curse you would use to make it the most impactful - my "worst curse" may not be nearly as "bad" as yours).

Either way, right in the feels.

You see, apparently, people on the Internet expect the people putting things on the internet to be predictable. That you can expect this such and such content, on this day, at this time. Or a very specific kind of content, and in a very specific style.
To do anything less is to, allegedly, sell yourself short, as a "content creator" - which, by the way, is a shit term. Because, hello, if you cook dinner, you created something (though, granted, not on the Internet, but you get my idea - and it could be on the Internet, with a snap of a photo and an upload to Twitter or Instagram).

And, apparently, your value as one of these "content creators" goes down if you are not predictable.

Well let's call it quits and wrap up shop here right now, why don't we. Because if there is one word that I would never use in regards to this little space on the Internet, it would be "predictable." Being 100000000% honest right now, a great deal of the time I don't even know what I'm publishing until it's written out.

The problem is, from time to time, I wish I was predictable. Because I'm straight out not. At all. That I knew what I would do. What I would like. Where I would put forth efforts.
But I don't. Because I'm not, well, that person. I could try, and I would fail (I know this, because I have tried, and failed. On multiple occasions.).
If I were to try and be one "kind" of person for any amount of time, and try and "create content" based on that, it would be very, very short lived.

If I were to say, have a knitting blog, I would have nothing to post. Because I have a sock WIP and a shawl WIP, and neither have been touched in about two days, and a few more days before that.
If I were to have a cooking blog, it'd get boring really quick, because we often eat the same things again and again and again. Both out of ease and financial reasons.
If I were to have a money-kind of blog, there'd be no content, because we're shit with money most of the time.
If I were to have a general crafting blog, you'd get lots of pictures of, well, nothing. Because I haven't done any sort of crafting except journaling with a fountain pen lately (which, while nice, and while I love you all, you're not seeing in my journal. #SorryNotSorry)
The only real regular kind of content I could create, reasonably, would be pictures of my dog. And while adorable, not really worth writing about.

At the same time, I know exactly what that person meant - there are certain websites and blogs that I go to, and I expect the same kinds of content from them.
But, if they were to post something entirely different, I would not be sad. I would be happy to see that they do more with their time than what they normally blog about.

Because, and I'm being blunt here, if all you write about is organizing, I seriously wonder what you do with all of your time. Or if all you write about is knitting, I also wonder what you do with all of your time. Or if you talk about money, or if you talk about home decor, or if you talk about video games.
Where does all your time go?!
To that one subject?!
Gosh that must be boring.

For example, yesterday I found a bunch of hilarious animal gifs, I did some learning things (and picked up a new subject, because why not), I cooked spaghetti and still struggle with the noodle-to-meat-to-sauce-ratio, went to the store and got angry at the lunch rush traffic, tried to call my insurance people and forgot that I rearranged my tax document storage, found a funny except from a Javascript book, and watched my dogs be ridiculous.
That's a whole lot of somethin' (and a whole lotta nothin', too, but that's besides the point). If anything, I would say my days are computer based. Past that, you got me as to how it would be classified.

I also know that, for myself, I absolutely cannot allow one thing to be my "focus." Because then that focus becomes all I can think about day in, and day out. In an obsessive and addictive way, not in a productive way. It's not healthy, and it's not good for me.
Especially when the obsession only lasts so long (as things tend to do for me - just as the Magic: the Gathering cards in my closet...or all the LEGO we have...or my D&D rulebooks...or my Skylanders...).

So, Internet, here is me apologizing for not being predictable.
And here's me telling you to shove it if that's what you're expecting and just can't handle going without.

And if you're totally cool with not being predictable, stick around for a while, it's not too bad here. At least I hope not.

~Havok