I miss sleep.
In a bed.
At night.
Sleep is a fabulous thing. And I've yet to figure out how to be good at it.
Oh, I'm good at naps, don't get me wrong. But I'm horrible at, well, going to bed.
I'm so good at naps, however, that I am able to screw up a mostly well planned schedule with just one day because of a nap.
They're not even planned naps. Just a "I'll go sit on the couch to do x." Which then leads to "hrm, this isn't comfy, I think I will lay down a bit." And, of course, that leads to "wait a minute, how is it two hours later?!"
I've tried just laying in bed, forcing myself to get in the mind frame of sleep. That doesn't really work. The dogs get comfortable, the Mister gets comfortable, and I'm left with only so much space, in which I tend to get sore and/or too hot. And then I'm too hot, and then wide awake!
It's gotten so bad that I was offered the whole bed, by myself, to be able to get over the whole thing. Which would mean the Mister would sleep on the couch (which is what I have been doing, and I can assure you that is like taking a horrible punishment with as uncomfortable as it is).
Basically, what I'm saying is...is it day time, night time, who knows what time.
I mean, i realize the clock says it is 2:44 pm, and it is Monday. But I only woke up at 12:30 pm. Because I wasn't able to fall asleep till about 5 am. Because I had taken a two or three hour nap last evening, even though I had been up for about 24 hours.
It's a vicious cycle.
On the plus side, I have been journaling a lot more.
But, I'm getting just about nothing else done.
Apparently, my "everything in balance" balance is easy thrown off.
My apologies for everything lacking lately. But, at the same time, this is part of the reason I started writing here. Because things like these happen to me on a somewhat regular basis, and I still need to find ways to get out of it.
I thought it had been working out, but apparently not quite as well as I had thought!
~Havok
P.S. Hopefully, of course, back to the regularly scheduled programming Wednesday.
Good luck with getting back into a better sleep pattern. I am terrible at it - I know I have to be up by 7am or the kids won't make it to school on time but I find it really hard to get off to sleep before about 12pm or 1am. Just naturally a night-owl I guess!
ReplyDeleteThanks! I'm really good with mornings, so far as if I'm up and awake before the sun is out, I get so much more done, but it's just getting to bed to be able to do that...ugh, such a struggle right now.
DeleteDoesn't help that there isn't really a good enough reason to keep up on it right now, as most of the things I have going on right now can be done at any time of day (the struggle of simplifying my life I guess?).
I keep trying the just stay up all night "technique" but I end up taking afternoon or evening naps, so that ruins it!
Thanks so much for stopping by! :)