Feeling Lucky

Today, I am feeling lucky.

Earlier this year, I had quite a hiccup in life, and everything got put on pause for about a month. It wasn't exactly "dark" times, but much darker than anything can be accomplished in.

And yet, right now, I'm in the same sort of situation, but everything is quite the opposite.

Things are getting done (not everything in necessarily the most timely manner, but done is done, right?) and looking up and...well, not bad at all. "Promising" isn't quite the right word, but it would do, I suppose.
I don't have grand plans of any sort, but I'm not adverse to doing anything.
I'm not necessarily chipper and energetic, but I'm excited about little things (and knitting, as that has just taken over everything).
I'm tired and sleeping more, but I'm not languishing on the couch all day and all night. Heck, I even feel like I'm starting to get a cold, and could easily just curl up in bed, but I would much rather be up and doing something.

And that alone is something to be confused yet happy with.

I'm not sure what the difference between now and earlier in the year could be. Is it because I've got an activity to be busy with? Is it because I'm feeling calm (from time to time, mind you, not often) and not so flustered all the time?
Nothing has really changed. We're still surrounded by stuff, my desk is a mess, and I'm still not great at doing the dishes every day.
But, I've got a workspace (of sorts) on my desk and am clearing (mostly) it off after a project is complete. And dishes are getting done before the sink is full.

And all of this is making me feel very lucky.
I realized it last night, that this all is very out of character. But it's fantastic and weird and bright.
For now, I will keep with it as long as I can (because I know it won't last forever) and will hope it happens again (though hopefully not under the same circumstances, of course).

I wish I could say what is different this time around, though. That I could share the "one magic trick!" with you and maybe help you find such places when you need them. If I could, I would. But I don't know what it is. It's just happened upon me, and I'm ever so glad.
I'm going to take advantage of it while it last, and make the most of it - try and harness it's power for as much as it's got, and ride it out through the end. As that's really all there is to do. Which is quite alright with me.

~Havok

P.S. Shall we blame the knitting? I'm tempted to. Because, seriously, all of my free time has been going towards it. I suppose having an activity that is exciting is something that would buoy one up, yes? The weird part of that is I've had things like that before (that suck up all of my time and are quite fun and exciting) that normally would just get pushed aside in similar times and circumstances and the "ick" feeling would still come (like normal). Maybe knitting is magic, who knows.